My eyes keep going to that face
Why don’t I even get sick of you?
When you slightly smile at me, I really go crazy
How can you be so pretty baby?
How can I explain this feeling?
When I see you, my heart becomes numb and sore
Oh, with what word can I explain to you?
All the words of the world is probably not enough
With those legs that are so pretty by just standing still
You walk toward me and you hug me
You know he’s so beautiful
Maybe you will never know
I want to hide you in my embrace
And only I want to look at you
I’m not saying this out of a young heart
But I really want to marry you
Telling you multiple times is not enough
With this tickling voice that only knows you
I will sing for you
My heart keeps going to you
I’m really going crazy
Music reminds me of you. You remind me of music. Music reminds me of love. Love reminds me of you. You remind me of love. Love reminds me of music.
Semester 1 has ended.
And I feel happy, that I’ve met amazing and inspirational people and formed beautiful relationships and connections (lollll) with nice people who share the same interests as me. We’re all obsessed about certain composers and aspects of music, or anything music, really !
And I’m so happy that I can finally talk about music stuffs with someone once in a while, since no one ever listens to me ! Haha. ! Seriously, except my parents and my youngest sister (they are all great listeners and I always show them any music that I love, whether Classical, Jazz, broadway, or even.. K-pop !) Haha :D Or any music shows or quotes or books. They take it really well„, unlike some people (my other sister, who’ll say “can’t u stop talking about Ravel? or Rachmaninoff or whatever. huh? who are those people?) and my younger brother (姐…stop talking already. I wanna study)
Oh yeah„ of course. I shouldn’t force them to listen to my new discoveries. Cos I’ll put earphones in their ears and will be like “listen to 3.50… isn’t that melody nice? omg. don’t you feel it? the harmonies? no? it sounds like water. right ? right ?” and they will show me this bored, expressionless face. ah well
What’s up everyone.
I have finally decided on which Romantic piece I’m going to play for this end-of-year recital.
I was gonna do Scriabin but I decided not to, since the ones I like are either too hard/long (fantasy, sonata) or too short (preludes). I can’t find any pieces I like that are between 5-6 minutes. (I’m not really fond of the mazurkas, nocturnes, or poems)
Instead, I’m going to take my teacher’s advice to play a Rachmaninoff prelude.
So which one did I choose? Which one?
Okay. I chose the one in D major : ) op 23 no 4
This piece has one of the richest harmonies and beautiful progressions. And it’s slow.
But don’t be mistaken. Although it’s slow, this prelude has really difficult voicings ! Yes…sometimes there are 3 voices. It’s quite a challenge cos you have to bring out a melodic line while maintaining the other melody. You have to play 3 individual melodies at the same time…omg….But I think it’s good, cos I can work on it.
I know I have to do something which I think I’m good at, which is…this. I’ve been told by many teachers and parents(during recitals), ( also Prof Holtham and pianist Akiko Kobayashi, Christine Utomo, and Sutiono Iskandar) that they like my playing and I have good sense of touch/sound and sensitivity. Haha..phew…At least I don’t suck badly…Maybe that’s why I got into this con in the 1st place.
Since my technique (as in double octaves and double thirds,etc) are not that good (my right hand could barely reach an octave, my left hand is just right). My hands haven’t grown since year 2 ! year 2….which is 10 years ago..My hands haven’t grown for 10 years…and I’ll be 18 in 2 months…which means my hands are going to stay like this for the rest of my life. I want longer, bigger hands ! : (
My arpeggios are okay. I think I finished an arpeggio in 3-4 sec. I need to work on those !!!!
This prelude is also a good contrast to my fast, toccata-like Debussy. I’m playing his Jardins sous la pluie from Estampes (also a recommendation from my teacher since I love ‘water’ pieces). Actually I like Pagodes…the notes aren’t too hard…but there are 3 layers of melody in that piece ! So I don’t want to cause disgrace to that piece as I only have 4 months to learn it !
Bye” !
oh man. I’m so addicted to this etude - Kapustin etude no 8. It is sooooo cool. Especially the last 8 chords. magnificent ! I like his no 1 too :D
- this morning me, Dana, Fiona, and Sherilyn had to do our last viva voce. And the queue is super long ! That we had to wait for 3 hours to actually do it !
- I got 10/10 for singing. yay. but my rhythm sucks. 8/10. Can never ace at rhythm. I always speed up at the end LOL
- It was raining so bad today. I got drenched and my stupid umbrella broke into half ! And it’s soooooo cold…..I hate Melbourne’s weather today ! And my face was so red in the basement cos it suddenly got warm.
- You know what. I think I have to do my viva voce faster…Cos I’m really lazy. I could memorise the singing in 10 mins…But I always procrastinate…
- Today we had to go to library cos Dana wanted to return some scores, but she went out of the practice rooms forgetting to bring the scores with her. And she forgot her umbrella downstairs too. What a cute unnie ! lol
- I lost my ID card….Can’t practice in Berkeley..Today I borrowed Tania’s ID since she has 2 (dun ask me why)
- I want to start practicing in Southbank next semester. Imma be a southbankers !
- It was so funny cos I told my friends I had to do ‘marketing’ but they misheard it as ‘bak kut teh’
Seriously guys. You make me laugh.
Had a long call with S just now. Like any other girls, we do like to talk about what’s happening.
After that call…I realised..that I might have gone overboard with the ‘acting weird’ thing.
Sometimes you thought you’re gonna change. That when you go to college you’ll be maturer and cooler. Anw, 17 is still young haha
But it’s today where I realized that I’m still me, that girl who is a bit clumsy who likes staring into space and daydream.
I guess I don’t know what liking someone feels like. I guess I only know what admiring someone feels like. And I often mix up these feelings.
He couldn’t be that perfect. In fact, he’s not. But in my eyes, he’s like the star. He shines brighter than anyone else. I freeze at the sight of him, and I don’t know if he notices, since I have bad eyesight and I wasn’t wearing glasses most of the time. So I couldn’t see his expressions clearly anyway.
Well, I hope I don’t run into him again cos I’ll involuntarily act weird. My head gets super dizzy and I can’t think properly!
I don’t know him. Never talked to him. Maybe he’s different from the way I see him. What if he’s not like what I think he is?
Anyway I’m just an innocent fangirl ! and not more !
